erm basically today was my first class drill test, no big deal lah... its juz first class! lol xD anyway.... erm i think generally still okay cuz i supposingly nvr screw up any parts except my coordination with ken... lol ask him go practise timing with me, he dont want... then in the end =.= lol haha, was lucky to get mr daniel yong to be my reviewing officer... lol at least he walk at a regular and slow pace for us to catch up lah... shiok!
next week is muster parade... lol really will be pissed off when i see those undeserving people getting their ranks lah... crap.. really feel unrespected by the decision made by upstairs... zzz argh what to do? its already been set and we cannot do anything about it... and after muster parade is really going to be a long debrief man... cuz there are so many persons to talk to one-on-one... lol
oh yah... sorry jasper.. erm i think he hurt his mouth when he tripped and fell becuz of my tackle... really sorry... it wasn't intentional at all.. =/
i feel that being a drill instructor isn't easy as it seems now... instilling a sense of passion for drills in them is like forcing a giant to do what he does not want to do... lol last time, we do not even dare to question and talk back at our sirs... but now leh, tell them do something, like feeding them poison like that; must ask here ask there de... zzz seeing their unenthu faces about drills during drill sessions really hurt me alot... hurt me big time.. can really see that they dont like drills at all; okay maybe some like but.... haiz nvm....
- stepping on a journey of never-returning
Friday, February 29, 2008
Thursday, February 28, 2008
1st class drill test tmrw...
lol i cannot believe it man... tmrw is my first class drill test! when i do not even have enough practise... and if im not wrong... its my first time taking a parade also... crap sianz... first chance to take parade= test le... sianz! i dont want to screw up! i dont want to be mocked at!
arghhh lets not waste time le... shall go and polish my uniform parts
- when the going gets tough, the tough gets going.
arghhh lets not waste time le... shall go and polish my uniform parts
- when the going gets tough, the tough gets going.
Wednesday, February 27, 2008
Subordinates
well, juz came back frm wednesday napfa training... yeah quite a few things happened today...
first thing, i juz realized, or shall i say, juz awoken frm my dreams to find out that we are all in all just subordinates.( i hope i spell it correctly)... yeah back to the point, we are just appointed to a certain name... just like a puppet emperor... cuz OUR FREAKING DECISIONS DONT COUNT A SHIT to our upstairs-aka-boss... they can just bloody overwrite our decisions without discussing or even mentioning it to us lah.. crap.. i feel that at least have the courtesy to seek and tell us the reasons for certains actions.. if not, WHAT ARE WE FOR? for show? to pose in front of a group of people? to pose for a photoshoot? wth... and the freaking problem is: what for give somebodies things they do not deserve just to benefit on the long run, and pull down the whole organization standard and reputation... *puke* fine, i should have right from the start admited the sad reality that we are just subordinates, people with no power and should just follow what is given; be it right or wrong...
on a lighter note, today had optional RT! woah finally, the SEC2s join us! so pleasing to see quite a lot of them playing! its really heartwarming... haha the NCOs run out of luck today, all the one-on-one scenarions all turn into either wide shots or pile driver... lol haha hope to have more of this kind of rt next time!
anyway, my legs damn tired now... haha later maybe going to sleep 1st, then tmrw morning wake up do hw! hahaha yeah! perfect plan.
- pointless attempting to kill a giant with bare fists
first thing, i juz realized, or shall i say, juz awoken frm my dreams to find out that we are all in all just subordinates.( i hope i spell it correctly)... yeah back to the point, we are just appointed to a certain name... just like a puppet emperor... cuz OUR FREAKING DECISIONS DONT COUNT A SHIT to our upstairs-aka-boss... they can just bloody overwrite our decisions without discussing or even mentioning it to us lah.. crap.. i feel that at least have the courtesy to seek and tell us the reasons for certains actions.. if not, WHAT ARE WE FOR? for show? to pose in front of a group of people? to pose for a photoshoot? wth... and the freaking problem is: what for give somebodies things they do not deserve just to benefit on the long run, and pull down the whole organization standard and reputation... *puke* fine, i should have right from the start admited the sad reality that we are just subordinates, people with no power and should just follow what is given; be it right or wrong...
on a lighter note, today had optional RT! woah finally, the SEC2s join us! so pleasing to see quite a lot of them playing! its really heartwarming... haha the NCOs run out of luck today, all the one-on-one scenarions all turn into either wide shots or pile driver... lol haha hope to have more of this kind of rt next time!
anyway, my legs damn tired now... haha later maybe going to sleep 1st, then tmrw morning wake up do hw! hahaha yeah! perfect plan.
- pointless attempting to kill a giant with bare fists
Monday, February 25, 2008
im back...
erm okay, i have not been blogging or coming online these few days cuz my computer is like crazy? sometimes can on somtimes cant... lol but who cares, let fate decides bah. yeah so im back... now to blog!
sum up these few days bah... oh yah got back my SS and History paper... erm i think thats the papers that were most well done bah... finally!
SS- 24/25.... 96/100 A1
History 23/25.... 92/100 A1
hooray! finally can get a high A1..
erm i think i forgotten what to blog about le... so when i remember, i will blog about it bah xD
- looking at the bright side that seems so dark
sum up these few days bah... oh yah got back my SS and History paper... erm i think thats the papers that were most well done bah... finally!
SS- 24/25.... 96/100 A1
History 23/25.... 92/100 A1
hooray! finally can get a high A1..
erm i think i forgotten what to blog about le... so when i remember, i will blog about it bah xD
- looking at the bright side that seems so dark
Sunday, February 17, 2008
Parents are bullshit
i dont knw if all of you agree with me, but i am very sure most of you will agree that parents are sometimes really bullshit...
i juz had a heated arguement with my mother... and it really set me offf... you know what they say? "you never even study, how can you expect to get good results?" what the hell? its either they had been blind during my mugging times or they are just pure retarded... they just cannot see you mugging? or should i say, i had been sitting in front of the table with loads of books, but daydreaming? crap leh, do they even know how to encourage and not just suan and suan and pushing you off the cliff? they just dont seem to realize that they are drilling a hole into our hearts...
arghh crap... im gonna heck care them le, let them think what they want. They say i slack and nvr study, so be it, im not gonna mug anymore... forget it... mug so hard for what... they only care about the end results that you get... act as if they care, they only care about results lah..
- has my home become only a place to rest?
i juz had a heated arguement with my mother... and it really set me offf... you know what they say? "you never even study, how can you expect to get good results?" what the hell? its either they had been blind during my mugging times or they are just pure retarded... they just cannot see you mugging? or should i say, i had been sitting in front of the table with loads of books, but daydreaming? crap leh, do they even know how to encourage and not just suan and suan and pushing you off the cliff? they just dont seem to realize that they are drilling a hole into our hearts...
arghh crap... im gonna heck care them le, let them think what they want. They say i slack and nvr study, so be it, im not gonna mug anymore... forget it... mug so hard for what... they only care about the end results that you get... act as if they care, they only care about results lah..
- has my home become only a place to rest?
Saturday, February 16, 2008
I Knew It....
hello everyone <----- sounds like bryan tan lol...
haha anyway... as i predicted yesterday... i flunked my HCL prelims... overall score is 51! really cant imagine that i can fail my paper2. really sianz leh... i really feel i dont deserve 51 lah.... C6 leh... crap; utter crap. how i wish results can be calculated based on the amount of effort and mugging you put in.. but.. haiz nothing to say...
and what do your parents say? they just rattle off like its all your fault and you never put in any effort? wahlao eh... you think i feel happy and excited when i get those crappy marks? i also feel sad, i feel like crying.. but they just wont let you off and keep on scolding and scolding.. they juz dont care about your emotions and feelings.. or they juz dont show it, when you need it the most... the government and school keep emphasizing on what its the process that counts; but in the end, the parents and teachers.. its the results that they care about... no matter how hard you try, results not there = nvr try at all...
- standing all alone to withstand the cold and harsh winter
haha anyway... as i predicted yesterday... i flunked my HCL prelims... overall score is 51! really cant imagine that i can fail my paper2. really sianz leh... i really feel i dont deserve 51 lah.... C6 leh... crap; utter crap. how i wish results can be calculated based on the amount of effort and mugging you put in.. but.. haiz nothing to say...
and what do your parents say? they just rattle off like its all your fault and you never put in any effort? wahlao eh... you think i feel happy and excited when i get those crappy marks? i also feel sad, i feel like crying.. but they just wont let you off and keep on scolding and scolding.. they juz dont care about your emotions and feelings.. or they juz dont show it, when you need it the most... the government and school keep emphasizing on what its the process that counts; but in the end, the parents and teachers.. its the results that they care about... no matter how hard you try, results not there = nvr try at all...
- standing all alone to withstand the cold and harsh winter
Friday, February 15, 2008
Nothing Seems to go right.
hmmm today was freakingly fulll of crap... alot of disheartening things happened.
First thing first, today got back my reviewed physics; and guess what happened, i was deducted another 2 more marks becuz of dont knw what crap, deducting 2 marks ffrom my already very little marks, so now become 23... what the hell, might was well juz fail me lah.. then those with high marks, they dont minus a single shit lah... after that gave back my geog paper... what can i say? 15.5/25. which is 62... bullshit... what the hell i dont knw why? really. you juz bloody mug and mug and mug... but you still get this kind of results. it juz simply doesnt pay off? and those that supposingly dont care about studies at all... they get higher than u!
hoped that training was gonna brighten up my day lah... i have always hoped so... but.. erm it turned out otherwise. the sec2s shouted softer than the sec1s leh, when they have 29 men, maybe they juz dont like and dont want to come for training bah.. thats what i see frm their eyes and faces... i really hope im wrong, but sometimes, things really dont go according to people's wishes. then there was another thing that set me off... when i added another 10 or 20 pushups WITH A VERY VALID REASON, they shouted walao like damn loudly.. what the heck is this? ABCD all forget le ah? is this the kind of respect that shld be shown to a NCO? i really dont knw what is becoming of this unit leh.. and worst still, people have no intergrity to own up also knwn as, no balls; have the audacity to say, come on, admit it!
hate it when people of the same squad quarrel. there is one point i want to say- dont always target the same guy leh, he may be very irritating or freaking, but think about this, if everybody keeps on targeting him; how is he gonna change without your help? work together leh, this kind of small little things can really test your bond. one year le in this CCA le........
kkay tmrw is the checking of olvl hcl paper for prelim 1... i dare not have any expectations; cuz the higher your hopes, the bigger your fall... everytime very confident, then in the end those crap results.. it really throw your down to the bottom... really dejecting; thats all i can say.
- does the truth always hurts?
First thing first, today got back my reviewed physics; and guess what happened, i was deducted another 2 more marks becuz of dont knw what crap, deducting 2 marks ffrom my already very little marks, so now become 23... what the hell, might was well juz fail me lah.. then those with high marks, they dont minus a single shit lah... after that gave back my geog paper... what can i say? 15.5/25. which is 62... bullshit... what the hell i dont knw why? really. you juz bloody mug and mug and mug... but you still get this kind of results. it juz simply doesnt pay off? and those that supposingly dont care about studies at all... they get higher than u!
hoped that training was gonna brighten up my day lah... i have always hoped so... but.. erm it turned out otherwise. the sec2s shouted softer than the sec1s leh, when they have 29 men, maybe they juz dont like and dont want to come for training bah.. thats what i see frm their eyes and faces... i really hope im wrong, but sometimes, things really dont go according to people's wishes. then there was another thing that set me off... when i added another 10 or 20 pushups WITH A VERY VALID REASON, they shouted walao like damn loudly.. what the heck is this? ABCD all forget le ah? is this the kind of respect that shld be shown to a NCO? i really dont knw what is becoming of this unit leh.. and worst still, people have no intergrity to own up also knwn as, no balls; have the audacity to say, come on, admit it!
hate it when people of the same squad quarrel. there is one point i want to say- dont always target the same guy leh, he may be very irritating or freaking, but think about this, if everybody keeps on targeting him; how is he gonna change without your help? work together leh, this kind of small little things can really test your bond. one year le in this CCA le........
kkay tmrw is the checking of olvl hcl paper for prelim 1... i dare not have any expectations; cuz the higher your hopes, the bigger your fall... everytime very confident, then in the end those crap results.. it really throw your down to the bottom... really dejecting; thats all i can say.
- does the truth always hurts?
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