trg

heylo everyone<------ BRYAN TAN. lol i know it sounds like fishball head, but who cares xD

yeah so basically had trg yesterday, wanted to clear their doubts for uniform inspection... but it turned out to be less fruitful as i tot... cuz people were listening without copying anything, as if they have photographic memory. it left me, both pissed and freaking sad. maybe they are really signalling to me that its really time for me to go, im juz gonna be no shit to them. was really sad but i didnt show it. i put that smile on my face. cuz a leader shouldnt be emo, even if you are not treated like one. =) nvm.. 28 days more. what a joke am i becoming? maybe shitty crap is the word used to describe me now..... they are telling me they dont need me anymore.

as someone told me, i have been very less sadistic as compared to the time when i took them as IC. i didnt want sec2 life for the cadets to be hell. it shldnt be those sadistic trg that forces people to quit... thats not i want... but things are proving to me tt im failing my experiment.. sometimes you juz cannot be good. some times you juz cannot close one eye.. people often say, whats the point of picking on tiny little details? so i juz close my eyes, sometimes both eyes shut... i am willing to, if things get better, but things like forgetting to bring your uniform parts for nearly like 3 months is really unacceptable... keeping an eye close doesnt mean we are unaware.. =( but for god sake, who cares abt what the shit am i tlaking rite now, they are so oblivious.. they simply think its a joke, dont they?

- seemingly realizing, life is meaningless without you now