zzz im still hallucinating about wedding, until i like cant concentrate properly lah. sianz i knw im still so dman young for this; but my mind like, once my eyes close, confirm will have some marriage scene come up de. zzz i think i what? drama ah? >.<
okay i got back some of my prelim 2 results. screwed them. wtf how can i get so low for add maths. i feel damn zzz now. seeing people get so high marks. crap like everything also zzz now lah, except maybe weddings! xDDD lol
and juz now go staffroom, also zzz. met mr teo. LOL and he caught me for hair. haiz how unlucky can i get? lol maybe i shld juz go and sleep my day out. =)
-let me indulge in work and studies so that i can stop thinking of those things.
Monday, June 30, 2008
Saturday, June 28, 2008
wedding dinner.
yesterday went wedding dinner. i think the name is roy and samantha. haha anw, gratz to them and i hope they can be together forever. =) haha although i dont exactly knw them, okay or i dont even knw them xD. my table all weirdos i can say. got typical singaporeans that think that the whole food is for them only, ahhh nvm.
well well well, can say that i was and i am still very envious of them. like so blissful lah. haiz, haha i can see that they are like so en ai. well arghhh i hope my wedding, no matter how grand or small, will be juz damn en ai and blissful. well i guess its still a long way to go, but juz let me dream a while bah xD
o.0 yeah i juz thought of a question: ask yourself, how many of your friends will come to you and feel with you, when your need them, when you need their help/comfort?
well well well, can say that i was and i am still very envious of them. like so blissful lah. haiz, haha i can see that they are like so en ai. well arghhh i hope my wedding, no matter how grand or small, will be juz damn en ai and blissful. well i guess its still a long way to go, but juz let me dream a while bah xD
o.0 yeah i juz thought of a question: ask yourself, how many of your friends will come to you and feel with you, when your need them, when you need their help/comfort?
Thursday, June 26, 2008
kkay im damn happy that i have solve this crappy thing lah. i really didnt expect us to be like this even for a moment. and i can say im partly at fault for maybe over-reacting. sorry boss, haha hope what dont break us make us stronger. =D
okay and for the otheer guy that is freaking emoing around, my advice is, stop doing that. =) becuz if this goes on for long, you will either realize that the friends around you are all emo and lifeless people or you will have no friends at all. serious. you keep claiming that "i feel left out", wtf? is you yourself that is leaving yourself out. you dont want to join us, is like what the hell lah. okay maybe you have tried, but from my point of view, joining us and emoing there is equivalent to not joining us and leaving yourself out... and i can say i have tried to help you lah. then you give me that fuck reply. seriously damn @#%#%^$^&*^*(*(. if you dont want to help yourself, nobody can. i hope after you read tihs (if you read my blog lah xD), this will give you a wake up call. discover it yourself, and not wait for what manual to live life, thats bullshit lah. zzzz the day that you can stop emoing abt your freaking life that is no different from us is the day that you will open up to us. you think your life sucks, you think ours rock? you think you dont knw how to live life, you think we nvr experience failures and setbacks also?
- what you do now determines what you will be in the future.
okay and for the otheer guy that is freaking emoing around, my advice is, stop doing that. =) becuz if this goes on for long, you will either realize that the friends around you are all emo and lifeless people or you will have no friends at all. serious. you keep claiming that "i feel left out", wtf? is you yourself that is leaving yourself out. you dont want to join us, is like what the hell lah. okay maybe you have tried, but from my point of view, joining us and emoing there is equivalent to not joining us and leaving yourself out... and i can say i have tried to help you lah. then you give me that fuck reply. seriously damn @#%#%^$^&*^*(*(. if you dont want to help yourself, nobody can. i hope after you read tihs (if you read my blog lah xD), this will give you a wake up call. discover it yourself, and not wait for what manual to live life, thats bullshit lah. zzzz the day that you can stop emoing abt your freaking life that is no different from us is the day that you will open up to us. you think your life sucks, you think ours rock? you think you dont knw how to live life, you think we nvr experience failures and setbacks also?
- what you do now determines what you will be in the future.
Monday, June 23, 2008
bball trg
wow todae damn hardcore. play from 10 to like 5. wtf? hahaha i think got sunburnt and cramps from that lah. xD muz own the area 4 games day
kkay damn shuang that others have to go school and we can slack! haha xD but i damn bu shuang abt one thing- i can alr foresee myself getting screwed by my parents when i get back my results. they alr hinted me. zzzz
i cant describe how much i like you now. im falling into the deap sea of love, and im gonna drown... but i dont want to be saved. xDDDD haha!
- less contact, less friction, less pain.
kkay damn shuang that others have to go school and we can slack! haha xD but i damn bu shuang abt one thing- i can alr foresee myself getting screwed by my parents when i get back my results. they alr hinted me. zzzz
i cant describe how much i like you now. im falling into the deap sea of love, and im gonna drown... but i dont want to be saved. xDDDD haha!
- less contact, less friction, less pain.
Friday, June 20, 2008
birthday.
this is the first time in my whole life that i isnt exactly very excited abt my birthday. cuz i knw theres still papers that will screw me up. and it did. add maths paper is like alien language to me, so i dont think i can even get 70/100. yeah crap.
but is really REALLY very happy abt the messages that my friends left me. it is really motivating lah, haha.
last year was a green colour one, this year it is a orange one. =DD with my cute little picture in it! haha xD love it, thanks! =DDDDDDDDDDDD
o.0 yeah, i have decided not to use time, or rather, waste time to be more precise, on this lame thing anymore. i rather not elaborate, and i rather say, " oh nothing has happened" to others, cuz its no point being angry. cuz the kind of hurting feeling caused is enough, and i will try to refrain from being sad and depressed over something that people couldnt care less abt; something that people treat it as a joke.
- i wish for eternity, in the love we share now.
but is really REALLY very happy abt the messages that my friends left me. it is really motivating lah, haha.
last year was a green colour one, this year it is a orange one. =DD with my cute little picture in it! haha xD love it, thanks! =DDDDDDDDDDDD
o.0 yeah, i have decided not to use time, or rather, waste time to be more precise, on this lame thing anymore. i rather not elaborate, and i rather say, " oh nothing has happened" to others, cuz its no point being angry. cuz the kind of hurting feeling caused is enough, and i will try to refrain from being sad and depressed over something that people couldnt care less abt; something that people treat it as a joke.
- i wish for eternity, in the love we share now.
Wednesday, June 18, 2008
i juz realized, afteer taking like 6 papers, its easier to count how many papers i nvr screw. cuz its a big fat zero. screw all the papers up, either becuz i have no time, or careless, then my precious marks fly away.
the feeling of studying so hard for it, then you face an imminent screw-up marks is really fuck. prelims is meant to boost your ego and confidence? fuck off. study so hard for what? you will get the same marks as those that nvr study, or even less marks than them? wtf is this? so this is what define fairness.
juz to tell you, if you think you have never been a chairman, or rather, OUR chairman before, then i shldnt even be standing there as a NCO in the first place. so stop saying this fucking lame concept that piss me off. cuz its really fucking fuck to see the leader that we depend on at times saying this.
- i need you now, i miss you so much.
the feeling of studying so hard for it, then you face an imminent screw-up marks is really fuck. prelims is meant to boost your ego and confidence? fuck off. study so hard for what? you will get the same marks as those that nvr study, or even less marks than them? wtf is this? so this is what define fairness.
juz to tell you, if you think you have never been a chairman, or rather, OUR chairman before, then i shldnt even be standing there as a NCO in the first place. so stop saying this fucking lame concept that piss me off. cuz its really fucking fuck to see the leader that we depend on at times saying this.
- i need you now, i miss you so much.
Sunday, June 15, 2008
bowling comp.
hmmm gonna talk abt friday. which was the bowling comp! =DD
okay early in the morning. supposed to meet at 7.45am. haiz, then as usual, the very small size yibin came at like 8.15 and keep claiming that he wasn't late. >.< haha but nvr mind lah. then got a little pissed/bushuang with the cyril or whatever you spell it. according to reliable sources also known as ken foo, he said their team confirm win us, confirm 1st. lol like challenging us sia. its still okay if they are the 1st in prelims, the problem is we are the 1st! haha sorry if it sounds abit haolian here. xDD
then reach OCC bowling alley to wait and stone. woah the feeling of being in the lanes, waiting for the commencement of the first game is really very stressful. looking at other teams all staring at us. haha so i cannot take it, went up to the supporters area to relax abit with the sec2 supporters, in which i hurriedly did a survey in the position of a bad kid. haha =DD
kkay 1st game started. not gonna blog abt the in between processes. cuz eh if not very long. haha but in general very nervous throughout. cuz apparently my team wasnt really doing very well. in which we lost the first game to RI. got some part dman funny, the cyril or whatever you call it bowled a strike. but it turned out to be a fault or sth, then not counted! LOL joker sia. kkay so 1st game i bowled 145, second game i bowled 165. hmm not bad lah. =D woah then after we finish, RI that team havent finish, so we crowded over to see lor. the last bowler muz be dman stressed cuz we all like staring at him. haha in the end, we won! wootz.
prize ceremony, i can tell you the differences between cat high or even area4 and HCI is dman big. people guess of honour some big guy. ours mr azman ( for CV lah ) okay im not saying mr azman is not big or sth, but...... then their refreshments is some grand buffet. ours is buns. >.< lastly, their prizes like so alot. fyi, i collected 4 trophies. the individuals, team individual, team trophy, and challenge shield. like everything also ahve prize lah. lol damn envious sia xDD
to sum up, personally, i got 5th for individuals and a team individual trophy. the team trophy will be put in store. haha then im gonna bring the gigantic challenge shield to mr goh on monday, lol gonna like attract attention>.<
then after that agreed to meet at 5pm for basketball. so i went home to study while they went wr house to MUG. haha yeah then att around 5.10pm, there was only 4 persons there. so we called lor, and everytime we called, they say 5 more mins. in the end, we abit pissed so we started playing ourselves. but all in all, it was damn nice. its been long since we played like this, and i really wonder, will this be the last time? ='( haha
kkay last but not least, i want to dedicate this bowling comp success to you! =D nothing is possible without you now. =)
- feelings of a toddler, naive of the whole menace and mean world.
okay early in the morning. supposed to meet at 7.45am. haiz, then as usual, the very small size yibin came at like 8.15 and keep claiming that he wasn't late. >.< haha but nvr mind lah. then got a little pissed/bushuang with the cyril or whatever you spell it. according to reliable sources also known as ken foo, he said their team confirm win us, confirm 1st. lol like challenging us sia. its still okay if they are the 1st in prelims, the problem is we are the 1st! haha sorry if it sounds abit haolian here. xDD
then reach OCC bowling alley to wait and stone. woah the feeling of being in the lanes, waiting for the commencement of the first game is really very stressful. looking at other teams all staring at us. haha so i cannot take it, went up to the supporters area to relax abit with the sec2 supporters, in which i hurriedly did a survey in the position of a bad kid. haha =DD
kkay 1st game started. not gonna blog abt the in between processes. cuz eh if not very long. haha but in general very nervous throughout. cuz apparently my team wasnt really doing very well. in which we lost the first game to RI. got some part dman funny, the cyril or whatever you call it bowled a strike. but it turned out to be a fault or sth, then not counted! LOL joker sia. kkay so 1st game i bowled 145, second game i bowled 165. hmm not bad lah. =D woah then after we finish, RI that team havent finish, so we crowded over to see lor. the last bowler muz be dman stressed cuz we all like staring at him. haha in the end, we won! wootz.
prize ceremony, i can tell you the differences between cat high or even area4 and HCI is dman big. people guess of honour some big guy. ours mr azman ( for CV lah ) okay im not saying mr azman is not big or sth, but...... then their refreshments is some grand buffet. ours is buns. >.< lastly, their prizes like so alot. fyi, i collected 4 trophies. the individuals, team individual, team trophy, and challenge shield. like everything also ahve prize lah. lol damn envious sia xDD
to sum up, personally, i got 5th for individuals and a team individual trophy. the team trophy will be put in store. haha then im gonna bring the gigantic challenge shield to mr goh on monday, lol gonna like attract attention>.<
then after that agreed to meet at 5pm for basketball. so i went home to study while they went wr house to MUG. haha yeah then att around 5.10pm, there was only 4 persons there. so we called lor, and everytime we called, they say 5 more mins. in the end, we abit pissed so we started playing ourselves. but all in all, it was damn nice. its been long since we played like this, and i really wonder, will this be the last time? ='( haha
kkay last but not least, i want to dedicate this bowling comp success to you! =D nothing is possible without you now. =)
- feelings of a toddler, naive of the whole menace and mean world.
Thursday, June 12, 2008
its for you
heylo everyone! <----------------- sorry i copied this phrase from bryan tan yi pin. haha lol
anw, i want to dedicate this post to you. haha the special one.
hmmm dont knw how to start leh, juz want to say certain things:
eheh this few years different things occurring at different time muz have confused you alot, making you wonder what is your future and goals. juz telling you that once you have set your mind on a specific target, juz keeping going and running towards it; dont look back cause i have already taken care of it. (haha!) remember that its you who told me not give up de? haha so you muz show me by example mah! dont eva give up k? hmmm its almost one year since you sent me that meaningful card. and i felt really bad last year not to give you the surprise that i intended.. haiz sorry. haha but i bet you didnt knw lah! xD you are one of the forces that is driving me towards my goal. really. haha so we shall jiayou together! =DD
i hope it really helps you.. haha im feeling so helpless lah, not being able to help you. sorry, i failed even as a simple friend. =(
- the marginal line between friendship and love.
anw, i want to dedicate this post to you. haha the special one.
hmmm dont knw how to start leh, juz want to say certain things:
eheh this few years different things occurring at different time muz have confused you alot, making you wonder what is your future and goals. juz telling you that once you have set your mind on a specific target, juz keeping going and running towards it; dont look back cause i have already taken care of it. (haha!) remember that its you who told me not give up de? haha so you muz show me by example mah! dont eva give up k? hmmm its almost one year since you sent me that meaningful card. and i felt really bad last year not to give you the surprise that i intended.. haiz sorry. haha but i bet you didnt knw lah! xD you are one of the forces that is driving me towards my goal. really. haha so we shall jiayou together! =DD
i hope it really helps you.. haha im feeling so helpless lah, not being able to help you. sorry, i failed even as a simple friend. =(
- the marginal line between friendship and love.
Tuesday, June 10, 2008
haha well.
well well well, since everybody says im emoing or my posts are all emo. i shall post a happy post here! and seriously its not emo lah, its self-relfecting. =)
haha wootz im so excited that prelim2 is drawing near. hmmm 5-6 more days to be exact. lol kkay maybe im have already accepted the fact that im gonna get owned agn, by the hardcore muggers agn.
huh? huh? huh? huh? huh? huh? huh? huh? huh? huh? huh? huh? huh? huh? huh? huh? huh? huh? huh? huh? huh? huh? huh? huh? huh? huh? huh? huh? huh? huh? huh? huh? huh? huh? huh? huh? huh? huh? huh? huh? huh? huh? huh? huh? huh? huh? huh? huh? huh? huh? huh? huh? huh? huh? huh? huh? huh? huh? huh? huh? huh? huh? huh? huh? huh? huh? huh? huh? huh? huh? huh? huh? huh? huh? huh? huh? huh? huh? huh? huh? huh? huh? huh? huh? huh? huh? huh? huh? huh? huh? huh? huh? huh? huh? huh? huh? huh? huh? huh? huh? huh? huh? huh? huh? huh? huh? huh? huh? huh? huh? huh? huh? huh? huh? huh? huh? huh? huh? huh?
haha basically that sums up my mind's thoughts when im studying. XD
anw im gonna analyze my progress for each different subject:
1) HCL- oh my i juz realize that this is a subject until im blogging this post... haha so errrr
2) EL- lol basically english prelim2 is over le so yeah screwed.
3) SS- hmmm not bad lah. finish revising the whole syllabus le. halfway thru the essays!
4) History Elect- ehh quite good lah. finish all basic stuffs le. in the midst of making notes for each essay!
5) PURE geog- haha lol, errr basically the geog teacher ask us to study on our own. even the basic techniques of answering certain questions i also gong gong de.
6) Addmaths & Emaths- woah i am juz in the midst of paper 1998 for add maths. lol haha havent even finish all the topics in the syllabus. major contributor of my 'huhs'
7) Chem- syllabus almost done, but havent quite started on practising yet.
8) Bio- hmmm the most logical subject bah. easy to comprehend. syllabus finished. woring on answering technques.
9) Physics- woah alot of formulas to remember! some parts quite confusing. muz start practising le!
haha so this sums up my work progress. please note that i included alot of hahas and lols in this post. so this shldnt be a emo post!
- the competition between determination and distractions
haha wootz im so excited that prelim2 is drawing near. hmmm 5-6 more days to be exact. lol kkay maybe im have already accepted the fact that im gonna get owned agn, by the hardcore muggers agn.
huh? huh? huh? huh? huh? huh? huh? huh? huh? huh? huh? huh? huh? huh? huh? huh? huh? huh? huh? huh? huh? huh? huh? huh? huh? huh? huh? huh? huh? huh? huh? huh? huh? huh? huh? huh? huh? huh? huh? huh? huh? huh? huh? huh? huh? huh? huh? huh? huh? huh? huh? huh? huh? huh? huh? huh? huh? huh? huh? huh? huh? huh? huh? huh? huh? huh? huh? huh? huh? huh? huh? huh? huh? huh? huh? huh? huh? huh? huh? huh? huh? huh? huh? huh? huh? huh? huh? huh? huh? huh? huh? huh? huh? huh? huh? huh? huh? huh? huh? huh? huh? huh? huh? huh? huh? huh? huh? huh? huh? huh? huh? huh? huh? huh? huh? huh? huh? huh? huh?
haha basically that sums up my mind's thoughts when im studying. XD
anw im gonna analyze my progress for each different subject:
1) HCL- oh my i juz realize that this is a subject until im blogging this post... haha so errrr
2) EL- lol basically english prelim2 is over le so yeah screwed.
3) SS- hmmm not bad lah. finish revising the whole syllabus le. halfway thru the essays!
4) History Elect- ehh quite good lah. finish all basic stuffs le. in the midst of making notes for each essay!
5) PURE geog- haha lol, errr basically the geog teacher ask us to study on our own. even the basic techniques of answering certain questions i also gong gong de.
6) Addmaths & Emaths- woah i am juz in the midst of paper 1998 for add maths. lol haha havent even finish all the topics in the syllabus. major contributor of my 'huhs'
7) Chem- syllabus almost done, but havent quite started on practising yet.
8) Bio- hmmm the most logical subject bah. easy to comprehend. syllabus finished. woring on answering technques.
9) Physics- woah alot of formulas to remember! some parts quite confusing. muz start practising le!
haha so this sums up my work progress. please note that i included alot of hahas and lols in this post. so this shldnt be a emo post!
- the competition between determination and distractions
Saturday, June 7, 2008
did i do the right thing?
hmmm 2 nite ago i did something.. i tihnk its for the good of both of us.
i guess i will or may regret this that action in the future, but im pretty sure that i did the right thing as for now. i juz feel that, seriously, its no point carrying on the friendship if i cant treat you or maybe you both as a real friend of mine.
some people may think that one should increase their number of friends, regardless of whether you really knw that friend or not. they juz want to widen their so called social network, but i think its quite wrong lah. whats the point of having friends when you original intention is juz to have vaguely known friends. i dont want to be these kind of people. (AND IM SERIOUSLY NOT REFERRING TO ANYONE)
its hard be normal friends like this. maybe my surroundings and impressions have caused me to become making this action. i know im being heartless, cold-blooded in some sense. hmmm juz as you have said. im a bad guy, juz continue thinking that im one. really.
if a bear bear or whatever you call it is what you want, and it will really ease the hurt you are feeling, im more than willing to buy you the bear bear, not juz one. sorry that i have to use a harsh tone against you, if not, this thing will nvr end. sorry i juz cant be tht fake to be normal with you.
as much as i wish i can treat you normally, i knw i cant. at least for now.
sorry. really sorry.
- is sorry really a cure?
i guess i will or may regret this that action in the future, but im pretty sure that i did the right thing as for now. i juz feel that, seriously, its no point carrying on the friendship if i cant treat you or maybe you both as a real friend of mine.
some people may think that one should increase their number of friends, regardless of whether you really knw that friend or not. they juz want to widen their so called social network, but i think its quite wrong lah. whats the point of having friends when you original intention is juz to have vaguely known friends. i dont want to be these kind of people. (AND IM SERIOUSLY NOT REFERRING TO ANYONE)
its hard be normal friends like this. maybe my surroundings and impressions have caused me to become making this action. i know im being heartless, cold-blooded in some sense. hmmm juz as you have said. im a bad guy, juz continue thinking that im one. really.
if a bear bear or whatever you call it is what you want, and it will really ease the hurt you are feeling, im more than willing to buy you the bear bear, not juz one. sorry that i have to use a harsh tone against you, if not, this thing will nvr end. sorry i juz cant be tht fake to be normal with you.
as much as i wish i can treat you normally, i knw i cant. at least for now.
sorry. really sorry.
- is sorry really a cure?
Friday, June 6, 2008
its missing
im missing. and its missing from my life.
the times when we would celebrate like some crazy dogs after scoring a goal.
the times when we would quarrel over where to eat and settling down at KFC in the end.
the times when we would vent our frustration together.
the times when we would get hounded and scolded by boss.
the times when we would get together and ready for parades.
the times when we would have conflicts and resolve it sooner or later.
the times when we would laugh at each other stupidity.
the times when we would stay till late nites over matters.
the times when we would get pumped together.
the times when we would cry together.
this list is not exhaustive. theres jjuz so many of it.
i miss it. i miss you, 29th batch.
-the line between hero and villian
the times when we would celebrate like some crazy dogs after scoring a goal.
the times when we would quarrel over where to eat and settling down at KFC in the end.
the times when we would vent our frustration together.
the times when we would get hounded and scolded by boss.
the times when we would get together and ready for parades.
the times when we would have conflicts and resolve it sooner or later.
the times when we would laugh at each other stupidity.
the times when we would stay till late nites over matters.
the times when we would get pumped together.
the times when we would cry together.
this list is not exhaustive. theres jjuz so many of it.
i miss it. i miss you, 29th batch.
-the line between hero and villian
Wednesday, June 4, 2008
我是个败类
todae... juz felt so depressed. okay i knw i have been depressing these days. i suddenly knw why people will attempt to commit suicide le
early in the morning, slept like a pig to 10am. then my house phone got spammed. both my parents ask me why i nvr go remedial, lol. this kind of thing, i also nvr intentionally go pon. the schdule there put remdial for 4-5 and 4-10 lah.. zzz then call my parents... wtf? told my father that my maths cant make it or sth. zzz crap. what a great ego booster.
kkay then went inside audi. talk to kb abit. he said a phrase that spark me:败类!.. i begin to ponder. am i really one? coming late to remedial, okay maybe i really deserve this. but it is too sudden to me i tihnk.
bowling comp, tmrw going to train. ken told me he cant go training tmrw cuz he has study grp. then yesterday he actually pon study to go library mug with people like louis lah. obviously i will be pissed abit lah. after a while, in his msg, he told me: okay lah, i going back to focus grp.. i belong there. the home of the losers. kkay, then i feel abit guilty, abit hearfelt that i might have hurt his ego or sth. i persuaded him to go back library with them. cuz library is definitely a better environment to study. seriously. then i got to learn that he was saying im something like xu wei in chinese. meaning very fake.
juz felt quite hurt in some sense. he is truly my very very good friend... i really care. and i get this in reply.
am i really a 败类?
sorry for the emoness. juz felt quite...........
-我是个败类
early in the morning, slept like a pig to 10am. then my house phone got spammed. both my parents ask me why i nvr go remedial, lol. this kind of thing, i also nvr intentionally go pon. the schdule there put remdial for 4-5 and 4-10 lah.. zzz then call my parents... wtf? told my father that my maths cant make it or sth. zzz crap. what a great ego booster.
kkay then went inside audi. talk to kb abit. he said a phrase that spark me:败类!.. i begin to ponder. am i really one? coming late to remedial, okay maybe i really deserve this. but it is too sudden to me i tihnk.
bowling comp, tmrw going to train. ken told me he cant go training tmrw cuz he has study grp. then yesterday he actually pon study to go library mug with people like louis lah. obviously i will be pissed abit lah. after a while, in his msg, he told me: okay lah, i going back to focus grp.. i belong there. the home of the losers. kkay, then i feel abit guilty, abit hearfelt that i might have hurt his ego or sth. i persuaded him to go back library with them. cuz library is definitely a better environment to study. seriously. then i got to learn that he was saying im something like xu wei in chinese. meaning very fake.
juz felt quite hurt in some sense. he is truly my very very good friend... i really care. and i get this in reply.
am i really a 败类?
sorry for the emoness. juz felt quite...........
-我是个败类
Tuesday, June 3, 2008
breaking
the after effects of pop. its abt 4 days from now le. but, whenever i settle down, i ponder abt the times when we were together. when in sch, looking at the plaza, memories start to churn out. haiz, when cna i get over this thing?
Cadet Inspector?
Cadet Inspector?
Cadet Inspector?
Cadet Inspector?
Cadet Inspector?
YES OR NO?
i guess its time to start thinking and make a decision fast.
- time and tide wait for no man
Cadet Inspector?
Cadet Inspector?
Cadet Inspector?
Cadet Inspector?
Cadet Inspector?
YES OR NO?
i guess its time to start thinking and make a decision fast.
- time and tide wait for no man
Monday, June 2, 2008
no.
feeling really down. i cant seem to get over it. it juz came so very fast. im left standing there, unable to react at all.
i juz cant say no to not leaving.
these days i can feel that everybody is sad, everyone is beginning to think of the times in store. we are lost now without it.
i have been thinking of this particular phrase, please correct me if i shldnt be thinking of this:
"Cadet Inspector Lim Jun Wei"
wont it be great?
-people only start cherishing after losing precious things.
i juz cant say no to not leaving.
these days i can feel that everybody is sad, everyone is beginning to think of the times in store. we are lost now without it.
i have been thinking of this particular phrase, please correct me if i shldnt be thinking of this:
"Cadet Inspector Lim Jun Wei"
wont it be great?
-people only start cherishing after losing precious things.
Sunday, June 1, 2008
pop.
100th post! what a way to celebrate man. sorry for the late update. cuz i slept till now, i really think i can take over yibin as the number one pig le. =D
let me recall. 30th may is pop lor. at first had SS remedial, couldnt exactly concentrate cuz... ahh dont knw why also. then went for parade rehearsal lor. was very pissed of by christopher karim, and yeah he is such a.... idiot in some sense, going for great grandfather or sth the birthday, what the hell? told him to inform us early, and this is what we get, nvm forget it. he is such a loser. serious.
then during the rehearsals, the skies were gloomy. and i really sianz becuz of this. then had some headache and the part above my left eye was painful. yeah! then during the actual parade it was sunny! abit too sunny though. haha but it was our very last parade! i can see all eyes were on us. then hand in squadfile. it was really sad and heartbreaking for me. okay i admit i was holding back my emotions= tears. i was abit how to say, my grip on the squadfile was tight at first, but i guess i had to let go. as i approach my goh, i force a smile. i loosen my grip as i gave the file to him. woah really very sad.
then fall in for fancy drill. shouted my lungs out in the unit cheer part and thank the sirs and mdms sincerely. when i threw my beret, i knw instantly, thats its really the end. then took photos lor. used smiles to cover up my sadness.
then went home to bath, dress up abit. and wore my very proud squad jersey to sch. this time the 30th batch seem very prepared, they locked all the doors to the audi lor. haha found no way to go into the audi. then finally its time to go in, we queued up in numerical order. so i was 3rd. the concert was relatively fun. except maybe the games quite de traditional in some sense.i 1st guy to tio the 1st game. lol was musical chair. then i 1st round lost le. zzz then must drink some weird drink. haha lucky nvr get stomachache. then when the sec2s singing until some part, i also forget why. i talking to potato, suddenly the whole 29th batch ask me go up. okay lor haha so went up and sing jie kou. upon the end, they gave me an adidas soccer boots and a key chain for my love one.>.< haha but wnyway thnaks 31st batch! =D love them.
during the concert, the whole 31st batch they all shouted some random name lah. lol haiz they shldnt have. LOL at the end, went up to take my plaque, it wrote: S/Sgt Lim Jun Wei SEC2DI. touching. then concert end went to eat dinner at the canteen, gave 31st batch some pingpong balls that they will understand the real hidden message when they combine them together. its exactly 30 with words. so yeah after clear store, louis and i went to listen to ruijie they all debrief my squad. made me remember that time my 1st time talking to 31st batch. its fast, isnt it.
this para is dedicated to 31st batch:
thank you for everything, in the process of teaching you all, i also learnt and benefited from it; the various skills. i am sorry if i have not been the greatest and best di, but i want you all to continue to learn. we 3 may not be there physically anymore, but we will always be there, mentally. jiayou, one more year and its your turn to lead the unit. i knw you all are capable enough. its sad, but we have to go. =)
to my dearest 29th batch, 3.5 years together. from 27, we have become 20. okay maybe eliminating those that distant themselves from us, left maybe 18? all the hardship we went through together, all the conflicts we had, i guess it had made us stronger? the memories, the times we had together in the unit, i will never forget. its always sad to let go, to leave this unit after so long, but its for the greater good isnt it? those RT times together, i knw it will all be gone. but maybe we can ask boss, to organize sometimes? jiayou 29th batch, i will too. we may not have left a great name, but we have certainly been the best in terms of memories. =)
woah really cannot take it, ytd in the nite, i cried one time when i woke up to go toilet. i cried juz now when i saw the plaque; the uniform etc. its juz too hard to let go isnt it? how many more times i am gonna cry? i dont knw it myself. i really hope time can heal whatever wound. my heart is breaking up into pieces. knowing that we are gonna go different ways, not going out together anymore. i juz feel like crying.
- the power of memories.
let me recall. 30th may is pop lor. at first had SS remedial, couldnt exactly concentrate cuz... ahh dont knw why also. then went for parade rehearsal lor. was very pissed of by christopher karim, and yeah he is such a.... idiot in some sense, going for great grandfather or sth the birthday, what the hell? told him to inform us early, and this is what we get, nvm forget it. he is such a loser. serious.
then during the rehearsals, the skies were gloomy. and i really sianz becuz of this. then had some headache and the part above my left eye was painful. yeah! then during the actual parade it was sunny! abit too sunny though. haha but it was our very last parade! i can see all eyes were on us. then hand in squadfile. it was really sad and heartbreaking for me. okay i admit i was holding back my emotions= tears. i was abit how to say, my grip on the squadfile was tight at first, but i guess i had to let go. as i approach my goh, i force a smile. i loosen my grip as i gave the file to him. woah really very sad.
then fall in for fancy drill. shouted my lungs out in the unit cheer part and thank the sirs and mdms sincerely. when i threw my beret, i knw instantly, thats its really the end. then took photos lor. used smiles to cover up my sadness.
then went home to bath, dress up abit. and wore my very proud squad jersey to sch. this time the 30th batch seem very prepared, they locked all the doors to the audi lor. haha found no way to go into the audi. then finally its time to go in, we queued up in numerical order. so i was 3rd. the concert was relatively fun. except maybe the games quite de traditional in some sense.i 1st guy to tio the 1st game. lol was musical chair. then i 1st round lost le. zzz then must drink some weird drink. haha lucky nvr get stomachache. then when the sec2s singing until some part, i also forget why. i talking to potato, suddenly the whole 29th batch ask me go up. okay lor haha so went up and sing jie kou. upon the end, they gave me an adidas soccer boots and a key chain for my love one.>.< haha but wnyway thnaks 31st batch! =D love them.
during the concert, the whole 31st batch they all shouted some random name lah. lol haiz they shldnt have. LOL at the end, went up to take my plaque, it wrote: S/Sgt Lim Jun Wei SEC2DI. touching. then concert end went to eat dinner at the canteen, gave 31st batch some pingpong balls that they will understand the real hidden message when they combine them together. its exactly 30 with words. so yeah after clear store, louis and i went to listen to ruijie they all debrief my squad. made me remember that time my 1st time talking to 31st batch. its fast, isnt it.
this para is dedicated to 31st batch:
thank you for everything, in the process of teaching you all, i also learnt and benefited from it; the various skills. i am sorry if i have not been the greatest and best di, but i want you all to continue to learn. we 3 may not be there physically anymore, but we will always be there, mentally. jiayou, one more year and its your turn to lead the unit. i knw you all are capable enough. its sad, but we have to go. =)
to my dearest 29th batch, 3.5 years together. from 27, we have become 20. okay maybe eliminating those that distant themselves from us, left maybe 18? all the hardship we went through together, all the conflicts we had, i guess it had made us stronger? the memories, the times we had together in the unit, i will never forget. its always sad to let go, to leave this unit after so long, but its for the greater good isnt it? those RT times together, i knw it will all be gone. but maybe we can ask boss, to organize sometimes? jiayou 29th batch, i will too. we may not have left a great name, but we have certainly been the best in terms of memories. =)
woah really cannot take it, ytd in the nite, i cried one time when i woke up to go toilet. i cried juz now when i saw the plaque; the uniform etc. its juz too hard to let go isnt it? how many more times i am gonna cry? i dont knw it myself. i really hope time can heal whatever wound. my heart is breaking up into pieces. knowing that we are gonna go different ways, not going out together anymore. i juz feel like crying.
- the power of memories.
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