chma. went chma for the first time in my whole life. and it was seriously damn amazing except for some spoilmoods. woah its like juz a little difference from an actual concert. nice work chs! lol its like so rare for me to say cat high rocks rite! xDD

haha anw to the spoilers part.

1) theres this bunch of retards sitting behind me. and i define them as crazies (a bunch of fools with no brains). seriously lah. wth. they think they own the whole bloody concert hall. zzz they there shouting vulgarities, insulting the performers. the freaking crap thing is there are parents and girls! what the? crap. still got one part i remember, got one shitface (sorry i have to use this word) was like commenting so loudly that the performers were lousy. then after that that same guy sung a song he like. my immediate reaction was >.<"? i feel like bursting out in laughter, but i knw i will get beaten up for sure. xPP its like he sings like some cow mooing away, and there he was commenting abt other's singing. this proves the theory of pot calling the kettle black. lol. and the worst thing is, when he was so excited and engrossed in shouting those crap, he like spilled dont knw thousands of saliva droplets on me. zzz arghhh.

2) simple short and sweet- the group vocal winners dont deserve to win at all. those three people from singapore?, is like. lousier compared to the other 2 grps. and bloody crap i saw one of them dui4 zhui3 lah. noobshit.

and apparently, i juz cant figure out how this guy can so easily distant himself away from us. he is like completely dao us now lah. but i can tell you honestly now, that nobody cares and gives a shit abt it anymore lah. you think we still give a damn. what we did before pop is enough. you want to carry on with your this kind of attitude, be my guest. i wont stop you. cuz well well well, this is your 'personality'. rite? seriously, you think our whole freaking screwed life is born to appease you? who are you? god damn emperor? we have like wasted thousand of hours trying to make you this bloody childish 'kind' less angry. i dont knw this time whats the reason, and precisely, it hasnt have a reason everytime. we, or maybe i, dont need a friend that doesnt treat me as one.

you 

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***** **** **** ***

- 我愛的人, 她已有了愛人

yeah so after ytd's general target. i shall give details! wootz! haha are you excited abt seemingly ridiculous targets? xD

well here i go. 

L1:

English- A2                                       Current: B3

Higher Chinese- A2                         Current: B4

R5:

Biology- A1 (>80)                            Current: A1 75

Chemistry- A1 (>80)                       Current: A1 78

Physics- A1                                        Current: A2

Social Studies- A1                            Current: B3

History Elective- A1                        Current: B4

Pure Geog- B3(best if can A2)       Current: D7

Add Maths- A2                                 Current: C5

E Maths- A2                                      Current: A2

kkay so based on this result, i will get L1R5 8 points. which seems so good to be true rite? xD haha but im not here to talk, im here to dream big and make it happen. 

yeah and anw, there are some subjects that are im not putting in enough effort. for instance, both maths and geog. i can tell you nobody will believe that i was very proficient in these 2 subjects. crap. im letting myself down, cuz i have such good teachers, seriously, they put in so much effort lah. then im here trying to waste their efforts by taking things for granted. zzz i make sure i buck up.

-being able to dream abt achieving something is already making yourself halfway there.

wanted to blog a ytd and the day before, but i guess time didnt permit me to do so. cuz i simply cannot find time? zzz crap. haiz i have no choice. its becoming more of like, if i can have time to come online, i will blog! xD haha thats a promise haha lol =) 

kkay so on monday, i saw this accident that consisted of 9 cars? near lentor that part, it was like causing a huge jam there as drivers were caring too much abt what happen to the cars instead of driving, thats why their speeds were reduced from like 80 to 40km/h? lol what a time to slow down speed rite? zzz nearly late becuz of that lah. xDD then i saw some of the people standing beside the cars were like taking a piece of paper and scribbling notes on it while observing their 'damaged' cars. its really funny, haha are they writing down what to buy for 4-d or toto later? lol what contradicting emotions =DD

anw, i feel so zzz nowadays, its not becuz of anything frustrating, its becuz i dont have enough sleep! lol its like... simple torturous. whenever i see those piles of homework that are blocking my view alr, i feel like sleeping; but when i think of how im gonna get scolded by teachers and how im gonna cry when i get my olvl cert when i dont do them, will like suddenly jerk up and like pia pia pia. zzz crap. my life is not supposed to be like this. 96 days to olvl, what to do? cant give up now, and im not gonna give up. i want to be smiling all the way home when i finish my papers.

yeah then last friday i got my report book. quite dulan. crap. i got 31/38 in class. its bullshit. although it may be the best class, but i also dont want to dian4 di3. i want to silence those people that still think they are so damn great by mocking at me, pissing me off by saying that i copied with the mocking eyes. i hate it.

target for prelim3-------- L1R5 <9

- obstacles are those frightful things you see when you take your eyes off your target.

okay todae was shooting comp finals. we went there with high expectations but we were backed, both dejected and frustrated. maybe it applies only to me particularly, cuz you nvr knw what others are tihnking rite? xDD

but seriously, im not angry with anyone. im serious. whats the point of being pissed off with somebody that doesnt want this kind of thing to happen also? yeah so dont think too much my dear louis! haha xD without any one of us, this team wouldnt be there in the first place. =) what over is over. come on man, we are the national 5th team! there isnt anything bad abt it xD oh yeah, at least we achieve our aim of beating that cocky cyril ting. objective is alr achieved x).

okay but on a more heavier tone?, lol anw, its no point crying over spilled milk. and i get abit frustrated by that. yeah and thats the reason sometimes i get frustrated with myself. why do people (including me) keep lamenting and crying when things get set and cannot be undone? its quite true sometimes lah, juz ask what i told ken and terence before the comp. we wont go far the one, based on the effort we put in. results dont just fall from the sky, one have to earn it. you cant expect your 6A1s to drop from heaven rite? god isnt a charity organization leh.

to add one, if im happy abt the results todae, im deceiving myself. cuz it sucks, and we are capable of so much more. maybe jjuz now i may seem abit pissed, but im juz thinking abt what have we done to reach here, i juz cant force myself to rejoice over the fact that maybe we can get 5th? 6th? 4th? and be able to maybe force myself to think abt where to celebrate later. its no point alr. and todae, 5th position...... is really a gift from heaven cuz we dont deserve it.

- being blessed with talent doesn't necessary give one a right to slacken off over any mode of hardwork.

no title from todae onwards. =P

haha todae so damn waste time in school. cuz half of the time we were either doing selfstudy or sleeping cuz.... teachers nvr come. lol

anw, todae mr tan went thru our combined humanities results analysis. crap. my results are so dman shitty. juz now i when i juz reach home, i went to find my previous exams comb humanities results. its like total ownage. im not trying to haolian or what. but this is seriously unacceptable. it supposed to let me score, and not let me whine over it. zzz looks like i cant afford to lose grip over any subject even for a minute. and there is this shitass in my class. i shall call him !!. he is so damn gl. freak during lesson i put my homework on the table, then !! came and give me that mocking look, and said: eh you copy whose one? fuck i tell you its damn dulan. okay i admit sometimes i copy, so people cant change? omg dont tell me !! dont knw that olvls is in a few months time? like he so damn zai.

on a lighter note, went home with cliff juz now. and i realize he is such a joker, and he claims that he is a serious person. what a joke xD. let me give a few scenarios;
1) on the cab, i sought of like saw ms chow, so i ask him if he saw. then this is his reply: i saw... yeah but actually i nvr lah. when i saw her, she nvr see me. so i turn my body abit, then i nvr see her le. LOL?
2) on the journey, we were discussing abt how to catch mew. then he was trying to catch a abra. he failed, and when he saw a kadabra, he caught it. so i ask if the ultra ball is more efffective with kadabra and not abra. and you knw what he told me? he animated with actions that the abra is too fast, so its impossible to catch... with the crazy sound effects that made me wanted to spit my bread out.

and this list is not exhaustive. oh my god, next time when he tell you that he is a serious person, please kindly be reminded that he is actually telling a joke. LOL!!! =DDD hahahahahaha

- say all the nasty comments and remarks abt a friend of yours, afterwards, look into a mirror and you will find your friend there.

lol

sorry people... haha lol i juz realized from DT and fishball that i have been posting my last 2 posts in egyptian or sth? haha sorrie sorrie i think its some bug from my mozilla. lol i hope the problem is solved. =DD

anw, todae went bowling with fishball and DT (in which i got to knw the prob of my blog). haha it was super fun. cliff got owned. he pumped 180 haha! he virtually lost everygame. my highest score is 173 i think... zzz still cant break my record. when is that day gonna come? will it be when im like 90 years old and awaiting death? haha xDD

ahhh 3+ months to olvl. wth? lol like so fast. and i have fallen victim to the mugging devil. serious. i cant believe i actually did homework until 2am ytd. lol? thats like omg... really unbelievable man. anw, no choice. have to pia pia pia le. no joke. =)

-what you do in the present determines what you are in the future.

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okay im not gonna talk about my results cuz i juz sucks. lol dman little time left. no time to slack.

juz got a little frustrated and pissed when people, juz keep breaking their promise lah. the soccer team people, wtf? starting like very on like that, zzz then when match come, tell me cant make it. and some i dont even knw the bloody reason. crap you think i like very so damn enthu abt this. everything i settle, juz ask them go bloody raise thier feet to kick the ball, also tell me cant. fuck. dulan leh. if you really cant then say lah, give people false hope for fuck? like that very happy meh? dotz >.<"""

then comes the sad part. todae before i come to school, saw my auntymummy. so i damn surprised, i ask her why she so early like going off alr. then she told me, ber yi passed away after contracting some virus abroad. i was like question marks flying everywhre. in my mind ber yi is like so young. and she was a really nice person. i really treated her as my ber yi lah. then in the end, she pass away. so damn sad, why muz things like this always happen? so i thought that, life is so freaking fragile, unexpected and unpleasant things always happen. and the bloody bad people always dont get affected. haiz, borntoleavethisworld. its so true man.

all in all, rest well ber yi.

- do not wait to strike when the iron is hot; on the other hand, make the iron hot by striking it.