Emo>?

hmmm finally understand why people have been turning emo these days bah.... cuz i really feel emo now... serious... this is juz the feeling of utter emotional depressed... cuz maybe too much negative things had happened bah... ahhh im really beginning to agree with those emo kias... haiz but... sometimes....

haiz.. today campcraft test, makes me realized quite a few things bah... im really begin to doubt my self: a squadleader? when i do it the hard way; people say i sadistic; people being to fear me =.= ( although i dont think so lah for my case), when i do it the soft approach; people say i too lenient; people dont freaking listen and give me downright sloppiness; people tell u to speak up more... its like wad the... both ways also die.... what can u do when people dont give u the derserved respect that u are supposed to have; things get delayed and all the fault seems to be always on u... things seriously get nasty when u are stuck in the middle; with both ways out coming to a dead end- this is the way i really want?

and more more thing zzz- i finally realized how dumb i was when i gave those stupid reasons to 'pon' training last time... when u hear it in the perspective of a squadleader; it is seriously crap, serious bullshit... everytime WHEN TRG COMES, then headache ah; leg muscles pain... wad the? its obvious until like u cannot even fool a 3-year old kid lor... and yoohoo; i am a secondary4 and 16 years old FYI. illness comes only when training day.. yeah any other days, he is perfectly normal =.=" come on lah! think using your brain... think of the consequences... might as well juz quit!~ im serious, juz notify me and u can go... no point wasting our efforts and time.. >.<

maybe should change role abit bah... i shall be the quiet one lor... since when i care, nobody gives a damn and call me extra or sth... its bloody useless...