Its Been a while...

heylo everyone, im here today to update my rotten blog...

today had CV recee lor, finally experienced what is called power struggle... cuz the people, especially the NCOs, juz freaking dont care about you. give an example: i remember clearly that i said that no psp was allowed in the bus or at any point of time... then what do i get? Two squadleaders playing psp at the back... what we said are juz crap lah, cuz they freaking dont care... kkay i am not saying all of them.. cuz some of the NCOs really put in the effort, i can really see. its like wth? during Hike Recee i also nvr play psp while cycling lah.. crap i knw its not your freaking problem, but its really..........

yeah then after that played soccer.. erm can say today i had been totally off-form. people pass the ball to me, the ball juz slipped thru.. zz then my style of game all cannot be carried out. worst still, my right leg tio whacked by xavier, lol if he was wearing studs shoes then my leg will be gone.. >.< haiz then i was thinking about what some of them said lah, they said im a soloist. erm kkay i agree sometimes i really am, cuz i see an opening there and sometimes i cannot see anyone within my range to pass to... sianz i dont want to be a soloist, i want to be a team player! then another thing, juz now during the game, they were discussing everytime i touch therm ball, that i am gonna lose the ball. thats very discouraging and disheartening, i knw i sometimes not really that zai, but dont need say until like this mah... even my own teammates dont trust me, what can i say? shall go and reflect bah.. am i really one?

that day yongjie zham my little toe.. now still damn pain and blue-black.. sianz walk also pain... zzz but i am gonna train my skills back.. i believe i can.

- what i need is heartfelt encouragement, and not fake applause