haiz, i juz feel awkward in whatever i do. as in like my heart and soul is out. lol. probably this is what you get when agony, frustrations and dejection come in place together. sianz.

did i not contribute? ahhhh i shldnt be thinking of this thing and juz feel happy for the 4 of them. why. ahh dont knw. i juz dont feel justified. this is probably the first time i dont look forward to NDP. but well, it cant be change, can it?

nothing is going well. im crashing. what am i doing? wheres my sense of direction that i previously had?

- give a man a fish, and he will throw it back at you.