erm basically today was my first class drill test, no big deal lah... its juz first class! lol xD anyway.... erm i think generally still okay cuz i supposingly nvr screw up any parts except my coordination with ken... lol ask him go practise timing with me, he dont want... then in the end =.= lol haha, was lucky to get mr daniel yong to be my reviewing officer... lol at least he walk at a regular and slow pace for us to catch up lah... shiok!
next week is muster parade... lol really will be pissed off when i see those undeserving people getting their ranks lah... crap.. really feel unrespected by the decision made by upstairs... zzz argh what to do? its already been set and we cannot do anything about it... and after muster parade is really going to be a long debrief man... cuz there are so many persons to talk to one-on-one... lol
oh yah... sorry jasper.. erm i think he hurt his mouth when he tripped and fell becuz of my tackle... really sorry... it wasn't intentional at all.. =/
i feel that being a drill instructor isn't easy as it seems now... instilling a sense of passion for drills in them is like forcing a giant to do what he does not want to do... lol last time, we do not even dare to question and talk back at our sirs... but now leh, tell them do something, like feeding them poison like that; must ask here ask there de... zzz seeing their unenthu faces about drills during drill sessions really hurt me alot... hurt me big time.. can really see that they dont like drills at all; okay maybe some like but.... haiz nvm....
- stepping on a journey of never-returning
Friday, February 29, 2008
Thursday, February 28, 2008
1st class drill test tmrw...
lol i cannot believe it man... tmrw is my first class drill test! when i do not even have enough practise... and if im not wrong... its my first time taking a parade also... crap sianz... first chance to take parade= test le... sianz! i dont want to screw up! i dont want to be mocked at!
arghhh lets not waste time le... shall go and polish my uniform parts
- when the going gets tough, the tough gets going.
arghhh lets not waste time le... shall go and polish my uniform parts
- when the going gets tough, the tough gets going.
Wednesday, February 27, 2008
Subordinates
well, juz came back frm wednesday napfa training... yeah quite a few things happened today...
first thing, i juz realized, or shall i say, juz awoken frm my dreams to find out that we are all in all just subordinates.( i hope i spell it correctly)... yeah back to the point, we are just appointed to a certain name... just like a puppet emperor... cuz OUR FREAKING DECISIONS DONT COUNT A SHIT to our upstairs-aka-boss... they can just bloody overwrite our decisions without discussing or even mentioning it to us lah.. crap.. i feel that at least have the courtesy to seek and tell us the reasons for certains actions.. if not, WHAT ARE WE FOR? for show? to pose in front of a group of people? to pose for a photoshoot? wth... and the freaking problem is: what for give somebodies things they do not deserve just to benefit on the long run, and pull down the whole organization standard and reputation... *puke* fine, i should have right from the start admited the sad reality that we are just subordinates, people with no power and should just follow what is given; be it right or wrong...
on a lighter note, today had optional RT! woah finally, the SEC2s join us! so pleasing to see quite a lot of them playing! its really heartwarming... haha the NCOs run out of luck today, all the one-on-one scenarions all turn into either wide shots or pile driver... lol haha hope to have more of this kind of rt next time!
anyway, my legs damn tired now... haha later maybe going to sleep 1st, then tmrw morning wake up do hw! hahaha yeah! perfect plan.
- pointless attempting to kill a giant with bare fists
first thing, i juz realized, or shall i say, juz awoken frm my dreams to find out that we are all in all just subordinates.( i hope i spell it correctly)... yeah back to the point, we are just appointed to a certain name... just like a puppet emperor... cuz OUR FREAKING DECISIONS DONT COUNT A SHIT to our upstairs-aka-boss... they can just bloody overwrite our decisions without discussing or even mentioning it to us lah.. crap.. i feel that at least have the courtesy to seek and tell us the reasons for certains actions.. if not, WHAT ARE WE FOR? for show? to pose in front of a group of people? to pose for a photoshoot? wth... and the freaking problem is: what for give somebodies things they do not deserve just to benefit on the long run, and pull down the whole organization standard and reputation... *puke* fine, i should have right from the start admited the sad reality that we are just subordinates, people with no power and should just follow what is given; be it right or wrong...
on a lighter note, today had optional RT! woah finally, the SEC2s join us! so pleasing to see quite a lot of them playing! its really heartwarming... haha the NCOs run out of luck today, all the one-on-one scenarions all turn into either wide shots or pile driver... lol haha hope to have more of this kind of rt next time!
anyway, my legs damn tired now... haha later maybe going to sleep 1st, then tmrw morning wake up do hw! hahaha yeah! perfect plan.
- pointless attempting to kill a giant with bare fists
Monday, February 25, 2008
im back...
erm okay, i have not been blogging or coming online these few days cuz my computer is like crazy? sometimes can on somtimes cant... lol but who cares, let fate decides bah. yeah so im back... now to blog!
sum up these few days bah... oh yah got back my SS and History paper... erm i think thats the papers that were most well done bah... finally!
SS- 24/25.... 96/100 A1
History 23/25.... 92/100 A1
hooray! finally can get a high A1..
erm i think i forgotten what to blog about le... so when i remember, i will blog about it bah xD
- looking at the bright side that seems so dark
sum up these few days bah... oh yah got back my SS and History paper... erm i think thats the papers that were most well done bah... finally!
SS- 24/25.... 96/100 A1
History 23/25.... 92/100 A1
hooray! finally can get a high A1..
erm i think i forgotten what to blog about le... so when i remember, i will blog about it bah xD
- looking at the bright side that seems so dark
Sunday, February 17, 2008
Parents are bullshit
i dont knw if all of you agree with me, but i am very sure most of you will agree that parents are sometimes really bullshit...
i juz had a heated arguement with my mother... and it really set me offf... you know what they say? "you never even study, how can you expect to get good results?" what the hell? its either they had been blind during my mugging times or they are just pure retarded... they just cannot see you mugging? or should i say, i had been sitting in front of the table with loads of books, but daydreaming? crap leh, do they even know how to encourage and not just suan and suan and pushing you off the cliff? they just dont seem to realize that they are drilling a hole into our hearts...
arghh crap... im gonna heck care them le, let them think what they want. They say i slack and nvr study, so be it, im not gonna mug anymore... forget it... mug so hard for what... they only care about the end results that you get... act as if they care, they only care about results lah..
- has my home become only a place to rest?
i juz had a heated arguement with my mother... and it really set me offf... you know what they say? "you never even study, how can you expect to get good results?" what the hell? its either they had been blind during my mugging times or they are just pure retarded... they just cannot see you mugging? or should i say, i had been sitting in front of the table with loads of books, but daydreaming? crap leh, do they even know how to encourage and not just suan and suan and pushing you off the cliff? they just dont seem to realize that they are drilling a hole into our hearts...
arghh crap... im gonna heck care them le, let them think what they want. They say i slack and nvr study, so be it, im not gonna mug anymore... forget it... mug so hard for what... they only care about the end results that you get... act as if they care, they only care about results lah..
- has my home become only a place to rest?
Saturday, February 16, 2008
I Knew It....
hello everyone <----- sounds like bryan tan lol...
haha anyway... as i predicted yesterday... i flunked my HCL prelims... overall score is 51! really cant imagine that i can fail my paper2. really sianz leh... i really feel i dont deserve 51 lah.... C6 leh... crap; utter crap. how i wish results can be calculated based on the amount of effort and mugging you put in.. but.. haiz nothing to say...
and what do your parents say? they just rattle off like its all your fault and you never put in any effort? wahlao eh... you think i feel happy and excited when i get those crappy marks? i also feel sad, i feel like crying.. but they just wont let you off and keep on scolding and scolding.. they juz dont care about your emotions and feelings.. or they juz dont show it, when you need it the most... the government and school keep emphasizing on what its the process that counts; but in the end, the parents and teachers.. its the results that they care about... no matter how hard you try, results not there = nvr try at all...
- standing all alone to withstand the cold and harsh winter
haha anyway... as i predicted yesterday... i flunked my HCL prelims... overall score is 51! really cant imagine that i can fail my paper2. really sianz leh... i really feel i dont deserve 51 lah.... C6 leh... crap; utter crap. how i wish results can be calculated based on the amount of effort and mugging you put in.. but.. haiz nothing to say...
and what do your parents say? they just rattle off like its all your fault and you never put in any effort? wahlao eh... you think i feel happy and excited when i get those crappy marks? i also feel sad, i feel like crying.. but they just wont let you off and keep on scolding and scolding.. they juz dont care about your emotions and feelings.. or they juz dont show it, when you need it the most... the government and school keep emphasizing on what its the process that counts; but in the end, the parents and teachers.. its the results that they care about... no matter how hard you try, results not there = nvr try at all...
- standing all alone to withstand the cold and harsh winter
Friday, February 15, 2008
Nothing Seems to go right.
hmmm today was freakingly fulll of crap... alot of disheartening things happened.
First thing first, today got back my reviewed physics; and guess what happened, i was deducted another 2 more marks becuz of dont knw what crap, deducting 2 marks ffrom my already very little marks, so now become 23... what the hell, might was well juz fail me lah.. then those with high marks, they dont minus a single shit lah... after that gave back my geog paper... what can i say? 15.5/25. which is 62... bullshit... what the hell i dont knw why? really. you juz bloody mug and mug and mug... but you still get this kind of results. it juz simply doesnt pay off? and those that supposingly dont care about studies at all... they get higher than u!
hoped that training was gonna brighten up my day lah... i have always hoped so... but.. erm it turned out otherwise. the sec2s shouted softer than the sec1s leh, when they have 29 men, maybe they juz dont like and dont want to come for training bah.. thats what i see frm their eyes and faces... i really hope im wrong, but sometimes, things really dont go according to people's wishes. then there was another thing that set me off... when i added another 10 or 20 pushups WITH A VERY VALID REASON, they shouted walao like damn loudly.. what the heck is this? ABCD all forget le ah? is this the kind of respect that shld be shown to a NCO? i really dont knw what is becoming of this unit leh.. and worst still, people have no intergrity to own up also knwn as, no balls; have the audacity to say, come on, admit it!
hate it when people of the same squad quarrel. there is one point i want to say- dont always target the same guy leh, he may be very irritating or freaking, but think about this, if everybody keeps on targeting him; how is he gonna change without your help? work together leh, this kind of small little things can really test your bond. one year le in this CCA le........
kkay tmrw is the checking of olvl hcl paper for prelim 1... i dare not have any expectations; cuz the higher your hopes, the bigger your fall... everytime very confident, then in the end those crap results.. it really throw your down to the bottom... really dejecting; thats all i can say.
- does the truth always hurts?
First thing first, today got back my reviewed physics; and guess what happened, i was deducted another 2 more marks becuz of dont knw what crap, deducting 2 marks ffrom my already very little marks, so now become 23... what the hell, might was well juz fail me lah.. then those with high marks, they dont minus a single shit lah... after that gave back my geog paper... what can i say? 15.5/25. which is 62... bullshit... what the hell i dont knw why? really. you juz bloody mug and mug and mug... but you still get this kind of results. it juz simply doesnt pay off? and those that supposingly dont care about studies at all... they get higher than u!
hoped that training was gonna brighten up my day lah... i have always hoped so... but.. erm it turned out otherwise. the sec2s shouted softer than the sec1s leh, when they have 29 men, maybe they juz dont like and dont want to come for training bah.. thats what i see frm their eyes and faces... i really hope im wrong, but sometimes, things really dont go according to people's wishes. then there was another thing that set me off... when i added another 10 or 20 pushups WITH A VERY VALID REASON, they shouted walao like damn loudly.. what the heck is this? ABCD all forget le ah? is this the kind of respect that shld be shown to a NCO? i really dont knw what is becoming of this unit leh.. and worst still, people have no intergrity to own up also knwn as, no balls; have the audacity to say, come on, admit it!
hate it when people of the same squad quarrel. there is one point i want to say- dont always target the same guy leh, he may be very irritating or freaking, but think about this, if everybody keeps on targeting him; how is he gonna change without your help? work together leh, this kind of small little things can really test your bond. one year le in this CCA le........
kkay tmrw is the checking of olvl hcl paper for prelim 1... i dare not have any expectations; cuz the higher your hopes, the bigger your fall... everytime very confident, then in the end those crap results.. it really throw your down to the bottom... really dejecting; thats all i can say.
- does the truth always hurts?
Tuesday, February 12, 2008
Crap Results.
okay im blogging now, cuz i feel damn sianzz... and this has been the only means to express myself nowadays, there is juz no one i can talk to... and no one that i can rattle all out without holding back anything, there just isnt anybody.. i hope im wrong? and i juz realize nobody actually visit my blog? except maybe john... =/
feel damn sianz... results gotten back now is:
Emaths- 21/30... 70/100... A2
Add maths- 24/30... 80/100... A2
Physics- 25/45... 56/100... C5
Chemistry- 35/45... 78/100... A1
Biology- 34.5/45... 77/100... A1
what the fish are those results? 5 subjects gotten back... 2 A1s, 2 A2s, and one C5! wad the helll, crap really crap... still want DSA, dream on lah... with this kind of crap results, nobody will want you; not even if you are holding the top position in you CCA, cuz THE RESULTS JUZ CANNOT MAKE IT... simple as that, full stop. and look at what i have gotten; a C5 for physics, hahahaha LOL... so whats the point of studying? you study still juz pass, nvr study also juz pass... STUDY FOR WAD? spend lots of my time and lots of my sleeping time juz to try and secure my confidence.. in the end what do i get? C5!
really really really damn fished up... so what if i have those A1s there... and btw its juz 2! people see one C5 there, they straight away reject... and you seee my A1s, its juz on the line... one more mark and it become and A2. seeing people get A1; high A1... i really feel happy for them. but at the same time, envious. i really want get high A1 too... but somehow... Worst thing is those people still say they sure fail... then one A1 pop up... very bullshit leh; think about others leh...
and juz saw weirong's blog, saw the 2 songs... its really true.. i feel damn how to say, emo about it... really.. i understand weirong now... its juz the world nowadays.
-会读书就一定是好孩子的榜样?
feel damn sianz... results gotten back now is:
Emaths- 21/30... 70/100... A2
Add maths- 24/30... 80/100... A2
Physics- 25/45... 56/100... C5
Chemistry- 35/45... 78/100... A1
Biology- 34.5/45... 77/100... A1
what the fish are those results? 5 subjects gotten back... 2 A1s, 2 A2s, and one C5! wad the helll, crap really crap... still want DSA, dream on lah... with this kind of crap results, nobody will want you; not even if you are holding the top position in you CCA, cuz THE RESULTS JUZ CANNOT MAKE IT... simple as that, full stop. and look at what i have gotten; a C5 for physics, hahahaha LOL... so whats the point of studying? you study still juz pass, nvr study also juz pass... STUDY FOR WAD? spend lots of my time and lots of my sleeping time juz to try and secure my confidence.. in the end what do i get? C5!
really really really damn fished up... so what if i have those A1s there... and btw its juz 2! people see one C5 there, they straight away reject... and you seee my A1s, its juz on the line... one more mark and it become and A2. seeing people get A1; high A1... i really feel happy for them. but at the same time, envious. i really want get high A1 too... but somehow... Worst thing is those people still say they sure fail... then one A1 pop up... very bullshit leh; think about others leh...
and juz saw weirong's blog, saw the 2 songs... its really true.. i feel damn how to say, emo about it... really.. i understand weirong now... its juz the world nowadays.
-会读书就一定是好孩子的榜样?
Thursday, February 7, 2008
Chinese New Year!~
first thing first, happy chinese new year to all... and best wishes too everyone!
anyway, today was supposed to go to my ah ma house to bai nian... but in the end.... my family pangseh me becuz i overslept! wad the... sianz... felt guilty... nvm shall go tmrw... haha somehow, after collecting jjust 8 angpaos this year... i have already exceeded $1000 le... woot so happy... haha my dad and mom so good, give me a total of $800- the factor that allow me to break the target of $1000 this year...
on another note.... i just simply cannot understand what the old people think... they always, ALWAYS cross the road without obeying the traffic rules and regulations... in the end, when people horned them or juz ran them over, it became the motorists fault... i seriously think Singapore shld revise this law... its like wad the? its the pedestrians that disregard the rules and then, it becomes the motorists fault? quite the unfair =(
the day before CNY celebrations, i got back my Emaths test paper... look what have i gotten... 21/30! which is like 70 out of 100 which is like A2? and seeing the previous post... my rating for this paper is 4.5/5!!! FISH lah... i still said in that post that i guarantee plus chop will get an A1 >.< sianz if based my results on this rite... alll my other papers that i rated like 3.5 or 3, i willl get back my results like Bs or Cs? really felt like being shot leh, work so hard, in the end still get back this crappy kind of results... seems like my DSA is gonna fly out of my reach when i could have gotten a firm hold of it.. ='((
-take control of things when you still can, and not regret and cry when things are longer reversible
anyway, today was supposed to go to my ah ma house to bai nian... but in the end.... my family pangseh me becuz i overslept! wad the... sianz... felt guilty... nvm shall go tmrw... haha somehow, after collecting jjust 8 angpaos this year... i have already exceeded $1000 le... woot so happy... haha my dad and mom so good, give me a total of $800- the factor that allow me to break the target of $1000 this year...
on another note.... i just simply cannot understand what the old people think... they always, ALWAYS cross the road without obeying the traffic rules and regulations... in the end, when people horned them or juz ran them over, it became the motorists fault... i seriously think Singapore shld revise this law... its like wad the? its the pedestrians that disregard the rules and then, it becomes the motorists fault? quite the unfair =(
the day before CNY celebrations, i got back my Emaths test paper... look what have i gotten... 21/30! which is like 70 out of 100 which is like A2? and seeing the previous post... my rating for this paper is 4.5/5!!! FISH lah... i still said in that post that i guarantee plus chop will get an A1 >.< sianz if based my results on this rite... alll my other papers that i rated like 3.5 or 3, i willl get back my results like Bs or Cs? really felt like being shot leh, work so hard, in the end still get back this crappy kind of results... seems like my DSA is gonna fly out of my reach when i could have gotten a firm hold of it.. ='((
-take control of things when you still can, and not regret and cry when things are longer reversible
Monday, February 4, 2008
Uopa 2007 GOLD!
as mentioned in the above title... CHSNPCC GOT GOLD FOR UOPA 2007! but this time round... it does not mean as honourable and prestigious as more than like 20 schools got it? as compared to 2006, 2005... yeah that time was really prestigious as only about 10 schools get to wear the No.1 uniform... but nonetheless... CONGRATZ TO THE UNIT... applause please xD
yeah and anyway, today was the last day of prelim! whether i can apply for DSA is all set le... so no point brooding over 'spilled' milk.... rating for today's english paper is 3/5... cuz i think it is relatively easy except for the vocab part that is full of traps... lol haha arghhh muz approach the teachers for testimonials... time is running out! =)
haha as for today, becuz it was after prelims... we celebrated by playing soccer! wootz... the most funny part i remembered was the KEN incident part- erm basically i asked him to show his power as a CHAIRMAN... he nodded his head and as he approached the ball... he slipped and fell... LOL juz imagine the sight >.<" haha
- don't visualize beating the keeper, visualize destroying the keeper
yeah and anyway, today was the last day of prelim! whether i can apply for DSA is all set le... so no point brooding over 'spilled' milk.... rating for today's english paper is 3/5... cuz i think it is relatively easy except for the vocab part that is full of traps... lol haha arghhh muz approach the teachers for testimonials... time is running out! =)
haha as for today, becuz it was after prelims... we celebrated by playing soccer! wootz... the most funny part i remembered was the KEN incident part- erm basically i asked him to show his power as a CHAIRMAN... he nodded his head and as he approached the ball... he slipped and fell... LOL juz imagine the sight >.<" haha
- don't visualize beating the keeper, visualize destroying the keeper
Saturday, February 2, 2008
it finally happened
okay... yesterday was training day... and erm... something that shldnt have happened happened...
anyway... yeah yesterday rained, which was the caused of the accident.. and somehow it always rain on training days de... the other days all very bright and sunny... sianz anyway... lets not brood over the accident le, get on and juz dont commit the same mistakes again... haiz and RT was not completed due to this one basket, really damn basket leh.. everytime come muz create trouble for us and add new rules de zzz for example, the new rule added was: no cadets are supposed to be playing sports after 6.10pm. wad kind of crap rule is this? wad the hell, though we did not care at all xD
yeah as we ignored the new rule... we played soccer with 28th batch! erm.. dont knw why, we alwyas have optional rt for the cadets, but they alwyas nvr care and juz go home straight. haiz i dont knw what is becoming of the unit.. lol nvm yeah as mentioned, the 28th batch! haha alwyas look for towards playing thme as they have great skills and teamwork de, u will always get a good and tight game: the final score is 29th batch 7 28th batch 4! haha troy sir nvr came cuz he got match.. yeah i think i scored one goal... haha damn funny thruout the match.
oh yah, so went home after eating and saw this girl that was once from 6 achieving... then i couldnt exactly remember who she is, so i jokingly say to leonard that i knw her >.< lol then she overheard and asked me if i remembered her.. LOL like that also can ... but i relaly dont knw how she knw me de... lol cuz i was not frm 6 achieving.. lol haha
yesterday was also the 5th day of prelim1! lol... managed to complete both papers but the 2nd compre qns was a killer! walao so chim lah... haha dont knw lah.. hope can get A2! and after the papers when we were dismissed, mrs anna tan approached me and said i cheated her feelings; cuz she said my addmaths paper was quite well done... >.<" erm from the last post and my memory i remembered clearly i screwed up the whole paper?! lol now i scared she is saying that "well done based on my standard, it is already well done" sianz, i hope not... =(
-looking on the bright side that seems so dark
anyway... yeah yesterday rained, which was the caused of the accident.. and somehow it always rain on training days de... the other days all very bright and sunny... sianz anyway... lets not brood over the accident le, get on and juz dont commit the same mistakes again... haiz and RT was not completed due to this one basket, really damn basket leh.. everytime come muz create trouble for us and add new rules de zzz for example, the new rule added was: no cadets are supposed to be playing sports after 6.10pm. wad kind of crap rule is this? wad the hell, though we did not care at all xD
yeah as we ignored the new rule... we played soccer with 28th batch! erm.. dont knw why, we alwyas have optional rt for the cadets, but they alwyas nvr care and juz go home straight. haiz i dont knw what is becoming of the unit.. lol nvm yeah as mentioned, the 28th batch! haha alwyas look for towards playing thme as they have great skills and teamwork de, u will always get a good and tight game: the final score is 29th batch 7 28th batch 4! haha troy sir nvr came cuz he got match.. yeah i think i scored one goal... haha damn funny thruout the match.
oh yah, so went home after eating and saw this girl that was once from 6 achieving... then i couldnt exactly remember who she is, so i jokingly say to leonard that i knw her >.< lol then she overheard and asked me if i remembered her.. LOL like that also can ... but i relaly dont knw how she knw me de... lol cuz i was not frm 6 achieving.. lol haha
yesterday was also the 5th day of prelim1! lol... managed to complete both papers but the 2nd compre qns was a killer! walao so chim lah... haha dont knw lah.. hope can get A2! and after the papers when we were dismissed, mrs anna tan approached me and said i cheated her feelings; cuz she said my addmaths paper was quite well done... >.<" erm from the last post and my memory i remembered clearly i screwed up the whole paper?! lol now i scared she is saying that "well done based on my standard, it is already well done" sianz, i hope not... =(
-looking on the bright side that seems so dark
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